It’s been three days that I have been in mourning .   The very first day that I learned of your passing,  I was literally in shock.  I could not accept the fact that I would never be able to see or communicate with you again.  The finality of the fact left me sad and confronting many things that came to mind.  First our own mortality, how fragile life is and we take our life, here on earth  for granted.  When I come face to face with this reality, it makes me realize how much I have to treasure each and every moment we live.  Each and every moment we spend with our love ones, friends, co-workers and all  special people and places that we come in contact with.

When I think about this I Am In Gratitude for all that I have been blessed with.  It’s all about feelings, perception and love.  Why did you have to go so young? Why, why, why?  I know for a fact now that this world can be harsh and cruel, and for souls as pure and beautiful as yours, it may have been hard to cope with.  This is how I see your death now.  I see that you came here to show love, peace, compassion and warmth to all that surrounded you.  That beautiful smile of yours that can light up any place anywhere was a blessings to all that perceived it.  You were gentle, you were loving, you were beautiful, you were Jacob.  And for that Dear Lord, I am so grateful.

Thank You, Father, for letting us borrow his beautiful  loving presence for those many years.  I could feel and see how you loved your friends and family.  How unconditionally you loved and protected our Natalie.  Those feelings of your light I will carry with me always.   This is the image I will always have with me of you, Jacob.  A beautiful and kind human being.

I  meditated and prayed.  In my minds eye, I saw you being elevated to a beautiful light, being guided by your beautiful and glorious Guardian Angels.  I felt in my minds eyes, how confused you were....  Perhaps thinking that you were still alive...  I saw our Blessed Mother, with her blue mantle, embrace you and carry you in her arms.  Angels all around you, as Mary carried you to where Jesus was waiting.  You knew then where you were, and the love you felt was so strong and wonderful that tears came flowing from your eyes. 

Yes my sweet Jacob.  You are on your way back Home.  Home where all souls belong and return to.  Feel the joy, feel the love and comfort of being back in the House of Our Father in Heaven.  Oh Jacob, I feel so relief to see you so happy and elated.  We will all miss you, for you were a priceless treasure we shared here on earth, but I can sleep at night in peace  knowing you are where you belong, Jacob.  You are finally Home.

Glory to God in the Highest, and Peace to Men of Goodwil.

Thank you for the memories, until we meet again,

Silvia Bueno